answering machine

Shopping tonight indeed was tiring. Poor Ally has to suffer with me! I am indecisive about shoes I want. Oh well.. again.. there are so many things I am uncertain of.

I feel myself a little like a zombie these few days. I am normal, smiling Jen when I am in front of people. But feeling sad deep down my heart. Well.. not very sad... but not happy for sure. I am contradicting myself now. Constant reminder for myself not to think of anything, ANYTHING regarding you. I sent off your birthday present bought sometime ago. I think this will be the last one.

A friend said: you are always giving and giving and giving, and when you don't get the return, you become angry. I agree.

I felt strange when I read your msg. Yes, I am sorry how things turn out like this too.

Nothing more to talk isn't it? It's like leaving voice massages in people's answering machine.

Another constant reminder: I will be fine.