Magicland

A harmless joke, your response hurt me again. You tried your best to drop hints everywhere. I can't simply ignore it. Its my turn to get it from the vicious cycle. Yes, its my turn to say why didn't you even give us a chance? Ironic! Merry go round, when is your turn to experience what I have been through? All these time, I am still in the same shit hole. I didn't move on? Like you always say I don't know. Whatever you do, is it just a friendly gesture? Or you just think that the distance between us is such a big barrier? I dare not ask anymore, I don't want to hear things I have heard before. I am the one who is hanging on that little hope its still possible. I don't understand why I am so stubborn. I don't know how much I can tolerate. I am losing myself again.