Right now in aussie land

It has been 4 years since I last stepped on aussie land. I always miss the life here. Melbourne is still as charming as before, except that everything is more expensive. The weather is fine, just cold and dry as winter always be. I am still adapting to the wind and dryness. Dockland was not even here 4 years ago. This place is becoming more cosmopolitan. I still like it here but I can't help but to think if I can adapt to the living here again. Did I beautify everything I remember about Aust? I wonder. I have not been very lucky in terms of job searching, but I still want to come back if I am given a chance.

I am given a chance for an interview in Zurich, what will I do if I don't get the scholarship? Sometimes I think I do things without thinking if I can ever handle. I just know I want to get out of here so badly, I am so selfish.

The closure I had broke my heart and made me want to escape even more. Will running away really help me? Or am I just jumping from one shit hole to another? I don't know. Just go with the flow? After I heard so much about this disappointing field I am working in, I can't help but to think I should have done something else after I graduated. I am having a crisis.