Clearing my closet

So many things happened these few weeks.

Went to Melbourne.. and had a great time!
Had some interviews... and more coming up.... nervous!
Busy preparing presentation for interview, arrange flights...change some CHF...and buy things for someone (oops.. dun need it now...ha!)
Catch up with friends and drink lots of beer... =)
Busted Amoeba's freaking liessss and be friended someone whom I never thought I would

I am busy preparing the presentation for interview in Zurich. Load up myself with lots of information and busy thinking of what to wear and bring for the trip. In addition to all these, I take care of some little businesses with 3 persons previously in my life. I gave them a BIG kick to clear them out of my closet. Damn.. I feel good, enjoyed every minute when I was doing it! No longer want to tolerate anymore nonsense from them or anyone. I gave them a piece of my mind and that's it. I don't need anyone to make me feel happy in my life except myself.

I do not expect others to treat me the way how I treat them but I definitely DO NOT deserve how they treated me. Especially the AMOEBA (how I called one of them now), the single cell organism, aka spineless, brainless and shapeless. (oh well, maybe I shouldn't insult amoeba!!! but I can't think of a better way of describing him) Kicking them out of my life will not affect me in anyway except feeling good. I wonder how I could have allowed them to treat me like this in the past? A friend mentioned one should not burn all the bridges, but who cares? those are rotten wooden bridges! I don't think they will cross my path in future. Thou shall have no mercy for people like them. Thou shall NOT forgive and forget. Why is it so hard for them to make a sincere apology???? ego?

Let me briefly mention crimes they have committed.

1 aka Amoeba: Lies lies lies, accused me behind my back, too bad mutual friend don't believe him, come back to tell me and ended their friendship with him as well.. aww.. poor loser!
2 some expat I dated recently pulled a disappearing act, obviously I didn't give him what he wanted.. aww.. another loser
3 aka U: treat me like delivery man. Sorry, I don't pay two thousand dollars of air ticket to do delivery. Whatever money I have spent on thing you asked for, I just take it as I dropped it somewhere. I don't think going to Zurich without a friend will cause me any injury. If you don't have time, neither do I.
I don't know what was your real reason behind but if you are afraid I am STILL in love with you.....spare me. When I said I don't love you anymore, I bloody MEAN it. Don't give me the I-don't-want-to-hurt-you CRAP!!! It happened 2 years ago, for goodness sake!

After these 3 weeks, I now can "beet" with anyone, anytime, in any mode! No one can treat me like dirt, I have to stand firm for myself.

Right now in aussie land

It has been 4 years since I last stepped on aussie land. I always miss the life here. Melbourne is still as charming as before, except that everything is more expensive. The weather is fine, just cold and dry as winter always be. I am still adapting to the wind and dryness. Dockland was not even here 4 years ago. This place is becoming more cosmopolitan. I still like it here but I can't help but to think if I can adapt to the living here again. Did I beautify everything I remember about Aust? I wonder. I have not been very lucky in terms of job searching, but I still want to come back if I am given a chance.

I am given a chance for an interview in Zurich, what will I do if I don't get the scholarship? Sometimes I think I do things without thinking if I can ever handle. I just know I want to get out of here so badly, I am so selfish.

The closure I had broke my heart and made me want to escape even more. Will running away really help me? Or am I just jumping from one shit hole to another? I don't know. Just go with the flow? After I heard so much about this disappointing field I am working in, I can't help but to think I should have done something else after I graduated. I am having a crisis.