Things that fuck up my mind

Things that will fuck up my mind:

Men

Lyrics

Movie "closer"(A friend who reminded me not to watch it again cos it's too much to handle for me)

Re-visiting places we went to

Actor who resemble you

The last goodbye by James Morrison is a good song. I mean every word.

A song dedicated to THE Dog, I now hate. And the ugly bitch... may you both burn in hell. I curse you both from the bottom of my heart.

p.s. Dog, I really hate you for being such a wimp!

"The Last Goodbye"

I don't believe you

And I never will

Oh I can't live by your side

With the lies you've tried to instill

I can't take anymore

I dont have to give you a reason

For leaving this time

Coz this is my last goodbye

It's like I hardly know you

But maybe I never did

It's like every emotion you showed me

You kept well hid

And every true word that you ever spoke

Was really deceiving

Now I'm leaving this time

Coz this is my last goodbye

I've gotta turn and walk away

I don't have anything left to say

I haven't already said before

I've grown tired of being used

And I'm sick and tired of being accused

Now I'm walking away from you

And I'm not coming back

Post vaccation

I feel great after the trip. But it didn't last long. All the stress starts to build up again. I have been planning my escape route for a long time. Who cares if I escape? as long as it works for me. I want to leave this place for a long time. Too much pressure building in my head. I can't handle it too well. I am just afraid I will go into depression and become suicidal.

Friends in europe are just wonderful. I really appreciate their effort to spend time with me. Planning trips... and activities. Thanks! Love you all! Of course, everyone is worried that I will break down when I see my someone again. No, I am fine. The minute I saw him in the airport, I knew is long gone, totally over. Just long old memories flashing back. I must admit it did hurt a little at the beginning, but it was just seconds. I realised how much I appreciate his honesty. To deliver a cruel fact 2 years ago is better than lying to me like a coward. It's like giving me a head shot is better than slicing small little pieces out of me slowly. I guess we will remain as friends who care for each other and probably will not see each other for the next 10 or 20 years.

Next, Aussie land in Aug.