C’était un reel plaisir

Another week has passed. Nothing major happened. So I finally bought some CDs to learn new languages. French and German. Picking up a language is never easy. I will see if I have potential to pick up one before attending real lesson!

Watched Combien Tu M'Aimes? (aka how much do you love me) on saturday. It's one of those humourous, slow and mild movie I love to watch on a lazy weekend. I had a wonderful saturday. Super!

Saw Eric Bana new movie trailer before the show started. He is such a brilliant actor, consistant good performance in every show he is in. Look right, if you don't know how he looks like. CUTE of course!

Firece

All I want now is to laze around and do nothing. Maybe hug someone with Fierce cologne by A&F on. Just cuddle may make me feel better. It's one of those feeling lazy, stone and some shitty feeling day.

Remember the memories, remember the impossibilities

It all seems so familiar. De ja vu. It's like the whole cycle is happening again after one year. Indeed, just a slight change of character. I do not believe someone can break me just like this. I need a constant reminder to keep a distant. To act cool in front of everyone. Nothing is allowed to surface. Nothing. We both see through each other in front of everyone.

Saw someone at barnone. He had the same sad, screwed up look like me. He sat opposite to me and I find myself looking at a mirror. A sudden urge to reach out for someone who is having a screwed up life at the same time. I said hi and after a few mindless Qs, I said you look kinda... and you continued "screwed"? Indeed, we both do. Shall we just all generalise it as tiredness. We should stay hopeful, things will be better after we are well rested.

Protect me!

People who choose to walk away. Leave things behind as if nothing had ever happened. There is always a someone being left behind sobbing.

I start to realise that people I hang out are quite dysfunctional. They appear absolutely up right and fine, but under the disco light and alcohol, they turn into a scary monsters who I do not recognize. As if I have X-ray eyes scanning them. Everything I see is ugly.

Someone confessed a little secret and we realised we are in the same boat. Shit.... A sudden development of sisterhood.

I don't know how long I can hang on like this. I feel myself is becoming dysfunctional. I am scared. I just want to run to you and you will shield everything away, keep me protected.

Fast forward

Dinner, followed by a few drinks. We ended up spending a long time together. You told me many things about yourself. It's a way of knowing you in a fast forward mode. Your past is quite something for me to digest. It's too huge to be swallowed. But I am glad we spent time hanging out. From the look of your face, I am not sure if we will ever have this moment again.

Work has become tough when lots of statistics is involved. I hate maths!

Illusion

Brain. It tells you what its right to do, but what we do the wrong thing and it comes back to bite your ass. Why is it so hard to co-ordinate? Or are we having illusion that wrong is right?

I feel bored since last week till now. Is it the heat and humditiy? or there is just nothing to interest me, again?

Confusion. I do not play mind games. I do not understand what is this person intention? All the gestures, body language, actions.. blah blah. How am I s'pose to know what all these mean? Can you just say it out loud what you want? This is like guessing game.

Hollywood commercial movies are always showing thriller, horror.... yahda yahda... Old movies always seems to have their own charm. Always feeling the joy watching it.

Drama continues

Seems like all the negative power is surrounding me. People (some wimp) continue to upset me. When do we have to act to generous and fake all the nice response when deep in your heart you hate the person? True enough, what I did over the weekend came back to bite my ass now. Sux big time!

Thank god for my good memory I do remember when people lied. For people who don't have good memory and just in case you are planning to lie again, I suggest you note down what story you are going to tell.

Comment allez-vous?

Indeed disappointed when the French lost last nite. They played equally good as the Italian, just lack a bit of luck. Oh well, life is full of disappointment, isn't it? Career, people around you may not turn out the way you want it to be. That's life. I enjoyed the game last nite, watched it with all the french near to a nice pool.... indeed I felt good.

Couple of incidents happened over the weekend made me know some of my "friends" better. Some people you just don't have to see them again. Do not get involve and stay away. Maybe they have a secret life, maybe they prefer to lie to me, maybe they are just not sincere to be friends. Maybe... Why bother to say hi when you don't want to? Maybe I don't want to see you either? Don't over estimate your capability. Be forward and frank about everything.

someone out there, you are sooo sexy!

say something good, wish me well

It seems like whatever what people say will turn out will come true. Everyone turns into fortune teller? Say something good to me please, just in case!

Departure of a good friend made me feel a little down these few days. Its just the transition period. People come and go, this is a place to meet leaving people. Feel numb after a while. Just don't invest too much emotions or you will just burn your fingers. The leaving person usually handle better than the one left behind! Sux.