Long time

It has been a week since I last posted. Thought I should write something down or I will get really lazy.

Last friday, it was a pleasant surprise to make a new friend in a bar. Never will I expect to find any guy who think straight in bar. An englishman met Singaporean. In conclusion, I have high affinity to people who are leaving. Met up with him on the next day since he was s'pose to leave on sunday. We ended up in MOS and his friend, another englishman was constantly picked up by men, not his intension, I am sure.

I must admit, receiving email from a person everyday makes me feel better . Attention seeking? Who doesn't like attention? I started asking if I am already using someone to get over you. I guess its a transaction period. On the other hand, I do not wish to start anything more than friendship when he is physically not with me. It's straining for both. I don't wanna step into another shit hole.

This week has been pretty eventful for me, although I don't know why I am so busy! Collection of tickets, ID card, meeting up with friends, work, meeting and... D&D!

My little niece is born this morning. Can't wait to see her in the hosiptal.

Long time

It has been a week since I last posted. Thought I should write something down or I will get really lazy.

Last friday, it was a pleasant surprise to make a new friend in a bar. Never will I expect to find any guy who think straight in bar. An englishman met Singaporean. In conclusion, I have high affinity to people who are leaving. Met up with him on the next day since he was s'pose to leave on sunday. We ended up in MOS and his friend, another englishman was constantly picked up by men, not his intension, I am sure.

I must admit, receiving email from a person everyday makes me feel better . Attention seeking? Who doesn't like attention? I started asking if I am already using someone to get over you. I guess its a transaction period. On the other hand, I do not wish to start anything more than friendship when he is physically not with me. It's straining for both. I don't wanna step into another shit hole.

This week has been pretty eventful for me, although I don't know why I am so busy! Collection of tickets, ID card, meeting up with friends, work, meeting and... D&D!

My little niece is born this morning. Can't wait to see her in the hosiptal.

ooi ooi ooi

Celebrated my birthday with another group of friends tonite. Ate so much food! While enjoying the chocolate cake, reminded me those days when I was studying in Melbourne.

I always remember all the sweet things happened there. A great place to shop and live. Although its quite a laid back place but you won't feel you are living in developing countries.

Lygon street, aka little italy. My flat mate and I always go for the gelati as our apartment can see the gelati shop. Somehow... crave for it whenever I looked at the shop.

Victoria market, our weekend must go place. Went there for the whole week grocery shopping. Stingy me always aimed for the $1 vege tray.

Yarra river.. love to walk from where I stayed all the way to Yarra river. Its so relaxing.. and when we saw the melbourne tower.. we... ignore it hahaha. LOVE the flea market on sunday near the bridge. Lots of craft work to look at, amazing.

I miss those days. I wonder if I will enjoy my life as much if I go back again.

answering machine

Shopping tonight indeed was tiring. Poor Ally has to suffer with me! I am indecisive about shoes I want. Oh well.. again.. there are so many things I am uncertain of.

I feel myself a little like a zombie these few days. I am normal, smiling Jen when I am in front of people. But feeling sad deep down my heart. Well.. not very sad... but not happy for sure. I am contradicting myself now. Constant reminder for myself not to think of anything, ANYTHING regarding you. I sent off your birthday present bought sometime ago. I think this will be the last one.

A friend said: you are always giving and giving and giving, and when you don't get the return, you become angry. I agree.

I felt strange when I read your msg. Yes, I am sorry how things turn out like this too.

Nothing more to talk isn't it? It's like leaving voice massages in people's answering machine.

Another constant reminder: I will be fine.

Sing a song for me

Today is my birthday. I am feeling fine, everything is the same except I am older. Its a day to celebrate. To celebrate my 30th yr alive and kicking and kicking on earth.

I am addicted to Korean series recently. I just finished watching my lovely sam soon. Its a really good comedy. Have a good laugh and try to forget the bad. While I was watching, I find myself a little like the character in the show. 30 yrs old with nothing major acheived, but she stayed positive and cheerful. I am not as mature as her of course. (Producers make every loves her right?)

Songs stuck in my head
1. Don't love you no more (Craig David)
2. Push the button (Sugababes)

Why aren't there any special promotion from Cathay Pacific??
I feel like a stranger?

I am writing nonsense today!

The long lost merlion stunt

I was a little high after some alcohol. Indeed china one is quite a nice and cozy place. After a few drinks... some ciggies.... and lots of catching up with my friends ...i feel pretty fine. AND YES.... after I reached home, I did a little bit of a merlion stunt!

A constant reminder from friends that I am turning 30! OKOK... So wat? I am not going to lie about it! Single and fabulous I am! hahaha....

Time for bed.. will post some pic online tomorrow.

My 40th post

This is my 40th post. It's my little achievement of the month. Never thought I can keep writing!

Yes, I am turning 30 next week. I should record down the before and after feeling, right? I am feeling fine. A little regret that things just didn't turn out the way I wanted and spoil the last bit of my 29th yr.

I had a disturbing sleep last night. Kept having nightmares. Unfamiliar faces kept chasing after me for no reasons. I remembered some ugly figures. I woke up for at least 4 times. Disturbing night indeed. I experience the same thing whenever you tell me things that upset me.

I don't know if you were pissed off after reading my blog. I couldn't care less. You didn't expect a backfire, didn't you? From now on, we may not speak again? or remain as friends? Let nature takes its course. Friends told me to ignore you, wouldn't it be escaping? Anyway, guys don't think that much. They don't analyze things like we do. No point thinking too much.

what goes around comes around had happened

I felt the cold down my spin and then feeling hot and alive again.

Listening to your confession about that someone and how you are suffering, I know you are going through what I had gone through. Maybe a milder version but I shamelessly feel good.

Maybe I am revengeful. I am feeling childish again.

I know someone will do such thing to you somehow, somewhere, sometime. Maybe eventually, the someone may accept you. Happy ending?

All this while, nothing is more effective than you telling me this. It helps so much on giving you up FINALLY. I feel silly and stupid but everything should be history now. I am glad is over.

I guess the pain make me feel alive and remember all the silly things I have done. Maybe if you read this, you may think I take it upon myself. But I am sure you understand why somehow this will happen. It doesn't occur with a reason.