Questionnaire

Two questions asked.

1. Do you prefer bad sex or no sex?
2. If you have a partner which category does he/she falls into?
a. To look good with
b. To have fun with
c. To marry

Answers I heard for the first question were very interesting. Ta-dah...
All the female said no sex, quality matters!
All the male said rather have bad sex if really no choice. Reason: because men can do it without emotion, AND most importantly... getting laid is better than DIY.

I start to think, when you have not experienced any good sex, how do you know what is bad? Golden rule everyone says never compare! But deep in our heart, we all do. Ironic huh? Does this physical intimacy play such a big role that it will eventually affect relationship if you have constant bad one... but shouldn't love be MORE important than that? Are we all becoming shallow and always just go for personal satisfaction? I wonder. I'm sure we have worries if we are the bad fuck that your partner will bad mouth to his friends. We all should have a little discussion open heartedly after each "mind blowing" session rather than falling asleep right away.

I can't ans the second question since I don't have any partner( damn it i feel discriminated). Anyway, how true is it that guys have the instinct to differciate which category does a girl fall into when they first met her?

Life is wonderful

Nothing in particular I wanna say this week. Nothing special happened this week except work work and work... and da vinci code. The only exciting thing was Jason Mraz Mr. A-Z. Simply fall in love right away. Life is wonderful... geek in the pink... need to say more??? What was I doing when the album released? Must be dreaming somewhere to miss such good music.

Memory flashed back for days. Things kept rushing back into my head. It felt so close as if I can still smell the air then. Silly enough I know but it's not worth living in the past now. Is it some sort of signs that it's time to do some soul searching?

I think I have been boring my friends. Is there anyone out there who can teach me to be more interesting? Run out of topic to talk about quickly. I don't know how to hold a intellegent conversation now. What happened? Have I turned into a naggy, ultrasensitive bitch who people do not wish to talk to?

McDreamy

I fall in love with a TV series. OK who doesn't? I love Grey's anatomy. Can't get enough....It's like back in old school days, when we are so in love with ER, George Clooney.. oh yeah!( ok BH 90210 when i was in secondary school). I'm sure producers have a formula to make a perfect drama. I want McDreamy!

There will always be some TV shows stuck in your head. ER, Chicago hope, Ally Mcbeal, Sex and the city and now.. Grey's Anatomy and CSI.

Stories in the show are so real and yet will not quite possibly happen in our lives. Pretty faces whenever you go? Hardly! Cute guys buying you drinks everyday.. no no...

That's why we call it drama, that's why we like it.

The week is over

It has been a busy work week. Freaking bad experiements daysss. When machines decided not to cooperate, there is nothing you can do. It happens in lab, and the best solution: postpone the rest of the planned experiments. It may get better somehow.

The second paper got accepted pretty quickly. Unfortunately I don't feel excited (again). I should.. so something about it. Seriously.

I received surprise sms-es these few days. I am glad he remembers me even when he is having holiday, enjoying himself. I want to get to know this person better without remembering how exactly he looks like (for the first time). It has been months since we know each other, writing everyday, I know it sounds like cyber dating (ok ok.. it's lame) but I miss his mails. But I still have doubts, is he over the last relationship? is he a responsible person, is he gonna be here for longer time.... blah blah blah......well again, maybe I am being ultrasensitive like I always do. Trying hard not to think too much here.

People have FB because they are lonely. Lonliness can be scary, especially during festive season. It drives you nuts, out of your mind to do silly things, that you may regret. Sometimes we know something we do will bite our ass later, but we do it anyway. When we are sober/happy, we know what is right or wrong. When we are drunk/lonely/sad, does it make a good excuse to do stupid things?

On the second sunday of May

Mother's day out shopping in the newly re-opened marina square. The second shop i stepped in, I was cut by a stupid hanger in Z_R_. I bleed of course, if not will not be making such a big fuss. How often will you get cut in a shop when you are happily browsing the new summer collection for your wardrobe??

Thursday night out, fun enough. Repeatedly told myself not to step into MOS (so crowded!), but the music and somehow the people were just irresistable. We spent almost half an hour got in and out of R&B room, without dancing. The air was choking.... anyway.....

I was asked last night, do you still like me? I was speechless at the beginning... because I never like him in anyway other than a friend. I pulled through with my... arrr.. hmm.. well.. hmm.. Will someone convinced that someone else is into them? Yes, I have met 2 such men, and NO idea how it got into their head. Should I be nice to beautify their day dream by playing along? or just tell them to fuck off? Sometimes I don't know how to say no which usually ended up suffering. Both the them will bore me death. I have not been bored by someone to that extend before. Talking to him make me feel that I don't need my brain functioning. Pray hard they will get out of my life soon!

I was told a few times that I am a sensitive person with excessive emotional baggage. What is the appropiate way to show that I care but not overdoing it? Do I worry too much? How do I know if I have crossed the line that I am nagging like a mother or showing concern? It's hard, isn't it?

Is this the way it should be?

Numbness suddenly hit me and I felt I had no interest in anything. Nothing can do the magic to excite me. Everyday, we do the same thing over and over again. Working in the office day in day out. Trying our best to live better. Why do I feel life is not so fun anymore? I am not a person who long for formula type of life. Am I asking for too much? Is it just mood swing, or I need a new environment to complete my life? Meeting new people is not equal to excitment. In fact, they can turn out to be a major disappointment. So bad that you don't wanna meet up again.